Akuji-Kun

I'm gaining weight and I'm a fucking mess, I'm starting to fall behind in school AGAIN, my art is going nowhere, I'm feeling like I'm leading one of my best friends on and I don't want to tell him in fear of hurting his feelings, I'm broke due to lack of job availability, I have no clothes to wear due to lack of utilities to keep them clean and having them fall apart, I keep going to this therapist whom I have no interest in seeing simply because me and my mother can't get along, my friends have totally lost interested in me, I'm getting my nose out of joint over some bitch "spending time" with a friend of mine and I don't even know her, my h

I never thought I'd get here. I'm surrounded by friends, loved by someone special, missed by people I consider family all over the world and totally fucking miserable... I can't even see past my own aura sometimes... Everyday, the same routine. Wake up late, check my Skype, e-mail, deviant art and furaffinity, rush to get ready, put on some black clothes, put in my head phones and listen to the same songs I listened to yesterday, walk to the bus stop and stare blankly at the library, thinking about my boyfriend, get on the bus and stare blankly out the window, get to school and put on a fake little smile until class starts. Class starts and I